| Saturday, November 25, 2006 |
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just got home from the retreat...capeeeeeeeek... BUT in spite of my physical tiredness, I've been blessed so much from this past 3 days from the retreat..here are what I learnt: 1. I asked God to give my "first love" back..as Pastor Nala said at the retreat, bak orang jatuh cinta gitu yaa, he/she will do the best he/she can to win the other's person heart..so kita juga harus gitu sama Tuhan give the BEST for God..Love God with all of my heart, with all of my soul (emotion/mind) and with all of my strength. gw saat itu intropeksi diri gw sendiri, emang I 've been serving Him actively lately, baik digereja sabagai coordinator of care team or at the carecell as one of the leader, tapi pas gw melayani Tuhan, apakah gw melayani Dia out of love, or itu cuman sebagai tugas rutinitas saja yg harus gw kerjakan setiap minggu? 2. I asked God to crushed my pride in my heart jujur aja gw akui, sumtimes gw suka take a credit or jadi rada sombong, apalagi kalo pas giliran gw mimpin carecell and diskusi yg gw bawain itu bagus and people started to compliment my good job/ good teaching material.... pas mereka bilang gitu, kepala gw langsung gede..pokoknya gw langsung bangga deh ama diri gw sendiri, and I forgot to give the glory to God! (_ _)" 3. I asked God to crushed my heart and bring me closer to Him. gw ini orangnya cuek, egois and all about myself..gw sih banyak temen, tapi gw lebih suka cerita tentang diri gw, pendapat gw daripada gw dengerin keluhan orang laen, problem orang laen...so beberapa hari ini gw jadi bertobat! gw bilang ama Tuhan, God please broke my heart and jadikan gw orang yang lambat untuk berbicara tapi cepat untuk berpikir dan bertindak beri gw hati yang compassion toward other people, hati yang humble, supaya gw bisa berkata, "sebab hidupku ini bukannya aku lagi, melainkan Kristus yang tinggal didalamku" selama ini gw menyangka kalo everything is OK, gw udah melayani Tuhan setiap minggu, tetapi setelah dikorek-korek lagi, sebenernya dalamnya itu gak indah...sebenernya gw ini membuat Tuhan sedih ngeliat gw yang kayak gini... so biarlah setelah retreat ini, gw bisa diubahkan semakin hari menjadi semakin serupa dengan Kristus. dan juga Tuhan sudah jawab doa gw about that special someone. well, actually I've been admiring him from afar and have a special feeling toward him since a year ago and lately I've been praying and asking God (2 of my spiritual sisters are also in agreement with me. they also pray for me and this guy) and then finally 2 days ago, in His special way, God reveal to me that he isn't the one. well, gw gak sedih...gw percaya saja kalo my life is in good hands... tadi pastor juga bilang kalo sebagai orang kristen, kita ini hidup harus punya tujuan (purpose)..if you don't know what your purposes in life are, you have to find it! gw kira-kira udah tau purpose hidup gw ini apa...and masih banyak yang harus disepurnakan didalam hidup gw.. the music ministry coordinator tadi bilang ke gw kalo mulai January 2007 nanti gw bakalan jadi worship leader digereja...so I want to prepare myself well gw suka buangeet sama lagunya GMB yang baru, judulnya "the best is yet to come" I was soo blessed when I sang that song.. lyricnya begini: lihatlah bintang di semesta bintang yang bersinar bagi kita waktu telah diberikan sangatlah berharga janganlah siakan s'bab Kaulah yang kudamba Kaulah segalanya now I run and set my eyes on You I lay my life at Your feet my hearts and my plan, my future in Your hand now my soul rest like the starts above for I know that the best is YET TO COME I believe the best is yet to come in my life..I believe the year of 2007 is the year of penggenapan janjiNya....bertahanlah...jangan menyerah....because the best is yet to come! ini ada beberapa foto yg gw ambil dari retreat:     |
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